Is it possible...

...to feel all the emotions at the same time? I bet it is. I'm excited, I'm scared, I'm angry and happy. I feel fine and confused, frustrated and sad. I want to leave the country and still I miss it. I'm also eager to see the Csorba family in Hungary for the first time in two years, but I'm afraid I'll be as out of my mind as I was those two years ago as we came back home. You see? This is it: Don't you worry too early - but I do.

Anyways - I just started my holidays :)) I had my last day at work today (which was kinda relaxing - I had no work to do so I just surfed on the Internet) and we took our cavaliers to the cottage so that my grandparents can take care of them during our trip. Rilla is already taken to its breeder, too.

So we're leaving tomorrow. Somehow I can't even realize it yet. It must be fucking cool to go by plane again - I love it! But there's one thing I'm more scared of than anything: the safety control at the airport! Nothing is as scary as it is. But yea, I have to confess that they've got me once, but I didn't do it on a purpose. I was just a little kid and I had scissors in my hand luggage so that I could have created something fun (u know the things the kids do with notebooks and pencils and a roll of tape for example) on the plane...but they took my bag and told me to get those scissors away from there, which I totally did, all scared. So I've been very careful and scared with those controls ever since, it was traumatic for me.

But I have some good news! I can have my laptop with me in Hungary! Daddy told me that the Csorbas have this wireless connection with the Internet that we can use freely. Wo-hoo! I mean, I wouldn't need to do anything but move my photos to this. And refresh my blog. And facebook. And twitter. Okay, I know I'm addicted, right.

It's kinda hard to realize that you have absolutely nothing to pack on a trip. Believe me, I just got this experience. I do have clothes, though, but they're all horrible! I can't understand how on Earth I have ever happened to buy them. I guess I need to refresh my mind during the vacation, I rly need some new thoughts!

I'll continue this 'mission impossible' - packing. I bet it's already morning before I finish this. If I ever do. I'll post something tomorrow when the big day comes. I'll walk through the gates and see my deep crush from the previous trip - of which I just got over...

...and I just can't hide it.

Gosh I'm excited. I visited the school for choosing my courses today and now after the meeting with the principal...I feel just great. I was able to choose both German and Spain, but not only that I'll try to study Russian which is organized outside the school lessons. I'm glad I can stay in Loviisa so that I won't waste any time sitting on the bus. I also got this list of our books and the list is long ;) I wonder how much all these books will cost...

Have I already told you how amazing place this Flickr is? It's a website for photos and videos, and I have put some of my pics there, too. I was exploring other people's photos when I suddenly found some incredible shots from Hungary. The photos were just wonderful and now I've found out where they were taken at. Yet I haven't found out where exactly in Hungary those places are located, but I wish they weren't too far away from Balaton. I mean, once I'll take my big camera with me, it would be sooooo cool to get shots like them. I'm even more excited!

I kinda shouldn't be here for it's this late now, so I guess I have to go to sleep. I can't believe I'm having only five days left at work - and seven days left until the trip to Hungary! Sorry for this post, I'm just way too excited. Here are some of my shots in the forest yesterday. Thanks for coming with me, Fia! <3>

^ Meet my new friend, Szimón the Stone ;)

Iiiit's weekeeeend!

Heyy guys! I can't believe it's weekend again! I have had a nice week, though. I'm feeling myself very comfortable with my workmates and the days at the office have gone well. But weekend is always weekend, you know ;) Still my "boss" was quite funny today. She came and kinda hugged me saying: "Bea, you should work for us." I was like, "Am I already not working for you, am I?" :)) Then she kept going on: "Yea, but more! You know, the school isn't really important! You should just come to us, we want you here." That's why I love working there - people are so nice and close.

It's interesting how easily and fast you can get addicted to something. Nowadays I am totally addicted to my e-mail although I didn't write anything to anyone before. I just keep writing and writing to my friend who's living in the same town, but who I haven't seen now...for about...one week! ;) But it's great that there is some way to contact - and it doesn't cost anything like txt message does - even though we can't meet, like, face to face. So thanks to my dear friend who replies quickly and makes me laugh, no matter where I am. Luv ya!

Hogy van? My mom hasn't canceled our trip (yet!). I guess she can manage in Hungary even though there is a couple snakes out there... ;) And I have spent my evenings studying Hungarian. It's an interesting language, btw.

Oh, I hate mosquitos! My ankles are full of these itchy knots that wake me up at nights. And when I say they are full of them - I can tell you - they really are full of them. I'm not even able to count them, they are so close-set. My legs look like an animal's feet, you should see them. This is ridiculous.

There's also another thing you should absolutely see: my room at the moment. It's a mess. My mom would faint if she saw this. And then my sis got this great idea to come to sleep with me yesterday so now I'm having this extra bed here, too. I knew I would have to take it away so why did I let her come here? Gosh.

Ok, now this sounds like I'm not feeling good at all, but I actually am. I just don't know why. I'll put my radio on and start to clean up my room so that someone can come here yet some day... Oh, and I got this information about getting in to Porvoo's college, but I'll just stay here in Loviisa if someone's intrested to know.

Have a nice weekend you all! :) At least I'll have one.

Happiness...what's that?

Hiii. I just published my very new personal blog and decided to write it in English. I actually don't know why, I guess it's just for a change, you know. The blog carries the name of the 6th song I've made by myself. I think it was describing enough, wasn't it? Or how on Earth could you know. I mean, can you seriously tell me you know who I am? ;)

I just had to tell you (who ever you happen to be) about this evening, 'cause I think it was pretty surprising in some strange way. You know, after a long, long day at work (yea, I'm working at this communication office in Loviisa throughout June) I was pretty tired when I finally got back home... I still had to lead these agility trainings later in the evening which somehow didn't really inspire me. No, not today, after the work and stuff. But ofc I went there and I'm glad I did! Even though it was rainy all time throughout those two hours, but the students (if you can name them like that) were great! Almost everyone had come to the trainings no matter what the weather was like and they had all got better. I mean, there's nothing that shows that your methods work better than that. And we're having this great team spirit in the group that totally lifts up everyone of us. That's just great!

I was so happy I laughed aloud when walking home after those two hours. Happiness can be just little things you normally wouldn't even notice. Like, walking back home after this long day, hair, clothes, face, the dog, you know - all wet, but laughing honestly.

And lastly the best news of the week - my best friend has come home from her summer cottage, finally! I have missed her soooo much, and now we can meet again and talk about...well, that's a secret I'll never tell...

xoxo Bea :]