In the end

Gosh I have to kill my conscience. I trapped on it again, this time it was cds. We bought four cds from Tesco yesterday, all with label "Made for Hungary". Because none of us had never seen that kind of marking before, we started to think if we could export the cds to Finland at all. It said made for Hungary. Not made for Finland or other countries.

As everyone who really knows me probably already guesses, at that point I was all worried and almost saw our family sitting in customs jail so my dad asked the salesman about the label. He obviously couldn't speak or understand English, as he paid no attention - just like nothing happened. So we bought them. At Csorba's I surfed on the Internet and found this relieving information: It just meant that the cds were cheaper. Thank God! Now I can listen to Nox and all these Slumdog millionaire -songs. (The book is amazing, btw!)

I remember the day we arrived here (what a surprise I do) and thought that we're going to spend all these ten days in sunny and warm Hungary. Now we only have one day left and I'm afraid we'll be back third time ;) (fourth, but third time here in Csorba's) I just love this place, we all do. The Csorba family hasn't been home very much, though, but it's OK. We already knew where are the best restaurants located and how to rent a car, for example.

Oh yea, we rent a car for two days and visited the beautiful cities of Pécs, Héviz and Szekszárd and this wonderful village of Tihany. I just love Tihany. The view from there...oh. It's something that you have to see with your own eyes. Those are the times when it's difficult to remember that Balaton actually is a lake. Oh, I can't even find the words.

I just have to mention that this place is home. I have to get here again and again. Maybe I'll move here some day. Mom and dad already found out the university cities of Hungary and what I should study. They said I could study Finnish and Hungarian and come here to teach Finnish in university. Not a bad idea! ;)

Anyway, we'll spend the whole day on the beach tomorrow and leave this place early in the morning on Saturday. I'll write more later... It has been lovely to live here with Polish and German guests and I want to thank the Csorba family for this house, for their kindness and ofc, for this Wi-Fi connection ;) Thank you so much!

Is it possible...

...to feel all the emotions at the same time? I bet it is. I'm excited, I'm scared, I'm angry and happy. I feel fine and confused, frustrated and sad. I want to leave the country and still I miss it. I'm also eager to see the Csorba family in Hungary for the first time in two years, but I'm afraid I'll be as out of my mind as I was those two years ago as we came back home. You see? This is it: Don't you worry too early - but I do.

Anyways - I just started my holidays :)) I had my last day at work today (which was kinda relaxing - I had no work to do so I just surfed on the Internet) and we took our cavaliers to the cottage so that my grandparents can take care of them during our trip. Rilla is already taken to its breeder, too.

So we're leaving tomorrow. Somehow I can't even realize it yet. It must be fucking cool to go by plane again - I love it! But there's one thing I'm more scared of than anything: the safety control at the airport! Nothing is as scary as it is. But yea, I have to confess that they've got me once, but I didn't do it on a purpose. I was just a little kid and I had scissors in my hand luggage so that I could have created something fun (u know the things the kids do with notebooks and pencils and a roll of tape for example) on the plane...but they took my bag and told me to get those scissors away from there, which I totally did, all scared. So I've been very careful and scared with those controls ever since, it was traumatic for me.

But I have some good news! I can have my laptop with me in Hungary! Daddy told me that the Csorbas have this wireless connection with the Internet that we can use freely. Wo-hoo! I mean, I wouldn't need to do anything but move my photos to this. And refresh my blog. And facebook. And twitter. Okay, I know I'm addicted, right.

It's kinda hard to realize that you have absolutely nothing to pack on a trip. Believe me, I just got this experience. I do have clothes, though, but they're all horrible! I can't understand how on Earth I have ever happened to buy them. I guess I need to refresh my mind during the vacation, I rly need some new thoughts!

I'll continue this 'mission impossible' - packing. I bet it's already morning before I finish this. If I ever do. I'll post something tomorrow when the big day comes. I'll walk through the gates and see my deep crush from the previous trip - of which I just got over...