In the end

Gosh I have to kill my conscience. I trapped on it again, this time it was cds. We bought four cds from Tesco yesterday, all with label "Made for Hungary". Because none of us had never seen that kind of marking before, we started to think if we could export the cds to Finland at all. It said made for Hungary. Not made for Finland or other countries.

As everyone who really knows me probably already guesses, at that point I was all worried and almost saw our family sitting in customs jail so my dad asked the salesman about the label. He obviously couldn't speak or understand English, as he paid no attention - just like nothing happened. So we bought them. At Csorba's I surfed on the Internet and found this relieving information: It just meant that the cds were cheaper. Thank God! Now I can listen to Nox and all these Slumdog millionaire -songs. (The book is amazing, btw!)

I remember the day we arrived here (what a surprise I do) and thought that we're going to spend all these ten days in sunny and warm Hungary. Now we only have one day left and I'm afraid we'll be back third time ;) (fourth, but third time here in Csorba's) I just love this place, we all do. The Csorba family hasn't been home very much, though, but it's OK. We already knew where are the best restaurants located and how to rent a car, for example.

Oh yea, we rent a car for two days and visited the beautiful cities of Pécs, Héviz and Szekszárd and this wonderful village of Tihany. I just love Tihany. The view from there...oh. It's something that you have to see with your own eyes. Those are the times when it's difficult to remember that Balaton actually is a lake. Oh, I can't even find the words.

I just have to mention that this place is home. I have to get here again and again. Maybe I'll move here some day. Mom and dad already found out the university cities of Hungary and what I should study. They said I could study Finnish and Hungarian and come here to teach Finnish in university. Not a bad idea! ;)

Anyway, we'll spend the whole day on the beach tomorrow and leave this place early in the morning on Saturday. I'll write more later... It has been lovely to live here with Polish and German guests and I want to thank the Csorba family for this house, for their kindness and ofc, for this Wi-Fi connection ;) Thank you so much!

A change

Hmm... I lied a bit when I told I would write something on our first day out here. I didn't. Not even on the second or on the third day. But now. I just got these Internet keys so that's why.

From where should I start? At least I've understood something. Something has changed. I have changed during these two years. I remember the pain I've felt all this time, but now I feel like I have just wasted my time. I'm glad I came here. Otherwise I would have never got completely over this. Over him.

Still I must confess that I was quite excited this morning as I woke up hearing this loud noise. It was him driving the lawn. At the moment I realized it was him I was completely awake. I looked out of the window to see him the first time in two years (yes, the way this happened was quite different than I though it would be) and there he was. Wearing exactly the same kind of clothes he wore last time, looking exactly the same. The only thing that had changed was his hair - it was a bit longer. Now I've been seeing him a few times and his face is the same, his voice is the same, his look is the same. Even though this feels wonderful, something has changed. Somehow I find myself thinking: 'Is this really him? I spend so many nights and days thinking of him, I cried for him and all? He's the guy?' I don't think I'm in love with him anymore. It's been relieving to notice this, since I don't think my life will be Hell anymore, after coming back to Finland. I hope this won't change during these rest ten days (only ten days! I could live in here!).

We haven't really done anything yet. It's so hot out here, you cannot walk even one kilometer without sweating like never before. But next week we'll rent a car to see other places. Then I can maybe get a few photos, too. Mom has told everyone I've been studying Hungarian and now they all think I can really speak or write. I mean, I can though, but only a couple words! Still it's been great to notice some familiar words from the middle of the sentences and so on. I wish I could speak Hungarian properly some day... I thought I could come here next summer to work in Csorba's! ;) This place is so nice and they are so nice. It would be great to get to know him a bit more - but just like friends do, you know.

I'll be back in here next week, now I have to beat the family in Yatzy and Uno! Szia and greetings from Balatonszéplak! <3>

Summer's here!

Finally the summer really seems to be here. It's funny how your mind lifts up when it's sunny and warm. At least mine does. For instance now, when I got this feeling that I have to do something fun outside. So I send an e-mail to my friend for asking if she would come to the forest with me and my dog. More than that, she said yes, of course and we're leaving soon. I just had to refresh my blog first ;)

Yesterday, when I was feeling totally no-life, I surfed on the internet (surprise, surprise!) and headed to the website of EF. I started to look for information about our coming language trip to Malta next summer and found this test for testing your English skills. According to this test I'm advanced ;) Wo-hoo. I just have to test my sis, too, although I'm pretty sure she will hardly understand anything of it.

Have I already told you that my friend's mom asked me to play the piano in someone's party? Yes, she did. I'd like to say yes and play a couple of my own songs and The scientist by Coldplay, but you all know how afraid I am of being in front of the audience... I should decide soon, but I just don't know whether should I go or not.

Thank God my family is in Helsinki now and I'm away when they'll come back home. I just can't stand them at all at the moment. We've been arguing since they came home from the cottage yesterday so I'm not really eager to be around...

Oh, it's already late. I mean, not late, but late for meeting Fia soon. I gotta go. But I just had to mention that it's possible for me to have my personal site after a couple weeks. I've found someone who will do the layout for me. Thanks to Taija :) She was the first to see "Realize!", my 5th song on the video, by the way. Now, byee!

It's midsum guys!

Back home again. We spent the midsum at our summer place in Hamina with our grandparents and my best friend's family. Unfortunately -even though I had my laptop with me- there was no internet so I couldn't write anything here. Otherwise I would have wrote something crazy, since we had such great time together! My sis had organized this race for us (I kinda lost...), then we all played volleyball with our cottage neighbours (they're our relatives) and it was totally fun! My grandpa fell down, like, million times, my mom took my place all the time and I got mad to her, we all screwed and made fun of each other and laughed. Geez we laughed!

Later in the night me, my friend Fia and my sis Ellis made up these crazy looks and then took some pictures, ate more goodies than ever (and I really mean more than ever) and again - laughed. Once we had those party looks we started to play Idols until I almost fell asleep. Yet we had to go to the crapper and while waiting for my friend I settled to lie to the moss. It was way more comfortable than our beds in the cottage... Somehow I however woke up in my bed in the cottage ants running on my face! Didn't I told you that the moss would have been way more comfortable than the bed, did I...?

I came home already today although my family stays one day more there. I have just played the piano, surfed on the internet, listened to music and danced like a freak. I'm a little hungry for I have only eaten breakfast today so I guess I'll have something to eat now. You guys, have a nice Saturday evening!

Oh and hey you, I've joined Flickr, so please check out my photoalbums here!